a wee bit o' angst

Where has my mind been tonight? Not with me apparently. I need to get started on my chapter response to Roni's Azure, but my mind just isn't entirely with it tonight. -_-;; I don't know why. Maybe there's something bothering me, or maybe I'm just feeling shitty. God, I hope I'm not sick. O_o;; Or maybe I hope I am. If I recall correctly last year, I wrote some pretty kick-ass fanfiction in my feverish delirium. Ah, and such began the long string of fucked up Seishirou & Subaru fics. ^_^;;

I'd like to try my hand at fucked up Sol & Ky fanfiction sometime...you know, things that are slightly off canon but still could be possible. Alternative viewpoints perhaps. Once in a while I get bored of my canon characters and decide they need a little twist. ^^;;

Tomorrow's the last day of class, but it seems I will have to be on campus for most of Thursday and Friday. =_=;; Oh well, that gives me a chance to study, undistracted by silly things like my computer. O_o;;

(But without nice things like my music. -_-;; Lugging around a CD player is such a pain in the ass. *sigh* But I have nothing else...so... ^^;; *sweatdrops* Guess you live with what you've got.)

So close to being break, and I can go home. ^_^ Being away from Boston and MIT does me wonders, really. Odd how all my muses reside in Utah. O_o;; Why'd they want to be there? Probably because there's no stupid things like work getting in the way. I pray for much ficcage this year. ^_^;;

I feel bad for not keeping in touch with my Utah friends. I do try, but perhaps we are content with drifting apart. Our interests are diverging, and it seems that despite my blog, they are unwilling to keep up in my life. I suppose that is all right with me.

Was sort of angsty today, especially during my library shift while I was talking with Ed over IM. We all have our little insecurities sometimes, and oftentimes mine come to the forefront when I find I have too much time on my hands to think about them. But you live each day as it comes I suppose, and if you're expecting something to happen in the indeterminate future, maybe it won't be too much of a surprise, though in truth, you are never prepared when bad things (or even the good things) happen.