November 2004 Archives

I want to play Gakuen Heaven some more...
but it's late at night, I have buttloads of homework, and I've only been able to find two dead links to the mp3 of the opening for Gakuen Heaven. (It's called "Welcome to Heaven!")

I swear if I don't hear the that song in the next 72 hours my head is going to explode.

;______; I need some boy loving...now. =_=

I wish it weren't so close to finals. I wish I weren't hosed at the beginning of every single week because that's when all my problem sets, papers, and lab reports were due. I wish I didn't need to sleep every night, cause then I'd have finished KotOR by now.

So it seems they're releasing KotOR II for the Xbox in time for Christmas, but us PC folks are going to have to wait until February 2005. -_-;; In time for my birthday I guess, but what am I going to be doing the month of January while I wait for KotOR II to come to the PC? O_O;; Waaaaahhh...

On an amusing note, Penny Arcade has a hilarious comic about KotOR II out. XD This is definitely a sign that the world is rushing me in my descent to the Dark Side. :/ Thanks, guys.

I'd say "Well, at least I'm not playing World of Warcraft," but I don't want to speak too quickly. ^^;;

I'm a crappy Jedi. =_=;;
I've been spending all morning/afternoon/day playing KotOR. Yeah, I'm not kidding you. I haven't watched any anime today at all...just sat around and played KotOR. I'm so behind. .-. Not caught up at all on One Piece, Meine Liebe, or Naruto. *bangs head* KotOR will be the end of me! ...despite the fact that I'm really really trying hard to keep my light side points up pretty high... =_=;; Blaaaaaaaahhh...

Lots of work to do tonight. :/ *sigh* I can't believe Thanksgiving weekend is over. Where did it go? ._.

Ganked from the 150 interests I have on my Livejournal account. ^_^ Proof that I am a nerd.

Here I go, entertaining myself with more:

I figured I better update before everybody figured me lost to the Dark Side of the Force. ^_^

Anyways, been playing KotOR like mad these past couple of days, because with the wonderful of addition of Sasuke to my pirate crew, I now have enough computing and graphics power to play KotOR, which is something I didn't have when it first came out earlier this year.

The goal is to finish KotOR by February, when KotOR II comes out. Maybe I'll even get KH: Chain of Memories finished. ^^;; Just about to get off of Taris. *rrrr* Must finish game! @_@

THANKSGIVING
I can't quite remember what I spent all of Thanksgiving doing. I go up around 12:30pm, played a bit of KotOR and then promptly panicked about the state of the turkey, since if we were going to bake it it sure wasn't going to be on time for dinner.

We ended up deep-frying the turkey (yeah, you heard that right. I fear to think how many gallons of oil we used on a 14 pound turkey) and I spent the entire afternoon making the mashed potatoes, gravy, baked yams, and stuffing. You'd think something like that wouldn't take 4 hours, but then you'd be wrong, folks. ^_^ Attendance was pretty awesome. Ducky and ZZZ came over to celebrate, as well as most of the usual Fenway crew, Malima, her sister Violetta, Ken, Harold, Mari, Margaret and me. It wasn't too bad, we had a lot of fun in a big group. Afterwards we all helped clean up, and managed to get everything washed up in record time. We even played a game of Star Wars LIFE being the big nerds we are. (I ended up winning, ruling the world as a Sith Lord. :3 Go me!)

Spent all of Friday afternoon (since that's when I woke up) and evening playing KotOR, watching some anime (not much), and finishing up chapter 4 of Miles. It's now off to the betas, so all you KxL fans can stop poking me (in the meantime) with your sharp objects. ^_^

Friday night Kakashi-sensei came over while I was still playing KotOR, and we spent a very enjoyable evening talking, watching some anime, and otherwise fraternizing. We have more in common than I originally guessed, which is why we work out as such awesome super-friends, I suppose. Kakashi-sensei and I got up a little bit before noon this morning and we had some lunch before doing work. I actually got my 9.16 problem set done, and I hope he got comparable work done on his stuff too. ^_^;;

Anyhoos, since the betas haven't replied to me about Miles 4...it's obviously time for me to play more KotOR.

Writing and proofreading the very last of chapter four of Miles before I send it off ot the betas.

It's about 3:30am, and I WILL FINISH IT before sleeping.

Let's see how long it'll take.

(More on turkey day to come later.)

EDIT: 5:30am, my brain has shut down. 5 pages left. Will do it in the morning. I don't think I can even survve another sentence. Bllaaaaahhhh.

Happy Turkey Day, everybody! May we all fall into tryptophan-induced comas today.

There'll be a feast at Fenway House tonight, so if you don't have plans, feel free to stop on over!

...I will now punt my fanfiction-writing in order to play more KotOR. Damn you, George Lucas, damn you. *shake angry fist*

I knew I shouldn't have started a new game, but I just couldn't help myself. =_=;;
Avatrix game me his KotOR today...so guess what I'm playing. O_O;;

And I wanted to finish Chapter 4 of Miles today too. =_=;; Well, there goes sleep time. ^^;;

I have no classes today (both of them got canceled), but yet I am forced to be here on campus from 11am to 9pm. :/ *sighs* I just can't escape the MIT life, can I? *bangs head against wall* I've got work from 11am-12pm, work again from 3-5pm, and Tae Kwon Do at 7:30pm. Technically we don't actually have tae kwon do today, but the instructor said that if we wanted to, he'd come on Wednesday night and teach us more stuff. ^_^

Since I'm the only one staying, I figured I'd take advantage. I need all the private help I can get in this thing. :x I was sparring with the instructor on Monday night, which was pretty cool. It was supposed to be no contact, but well...we had contact anyway, especially when I was blocking and all. It was good fun, if extremely tiring. =_=;;

I was supposed to be doing my presentation today, but since class is canceled...no presentation! So I spent all of last night watching Red Dwarf and Invader Zim, playing KH: Chain of Memories (gah, I'm so slow at reading Japanese. It's such a chore! >_<), and going over some fic I promised to put out by the end of this week. Ah, it was good times. ^_^ I enjoyed myself immensely. More of doing that tonight, and during the day even, since I'm stuck at work for 3 hours, and on campus for even more. God knows what I'll actually do to myself...probably stow away in a small corner of the library and just see how much I can churn out.

Thanks to garbage cans, the voyd is now down two mice. XD First a mouse got caught in Destra's trash can and couldn't get out (or so we thought, I'm not sure whether or not he was still in there when Destra finally took the trash out), and last night a mouse got caught in my overflowing trash can. Stupid thing ran back into the trash when I waved at it, which allowed me to trap it effectively. I left it alone in there for a bit before unlazy-ing myself and taking out the trash bag. Since I felt it was probably more satisfactory for me to kill the mouse right then and there instead of just tossing him into the dumpster in the back, I pulled out the trash back, found him near the bottom, and promptly stomped on him.

Mice have surprisingly little blood when you squish them. I'll keep this in mind the next time I see a mouse and I want to stomp on it (I've had two chances previous to this, and each time I've figured I'd rather not due to the likely mess, but now that I find out mice make such little mess...). There is also no satisfying squishy feeling, but that just might be because I was wearing shoes.

Next time I see a mouse...it's so going down. >3

Somebody posted a ROM of the new Kingdom Hearts GBA game (titled Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories) on Tokyo Toshokan.

And I just started playing it. ^_^ Oh, so much nostalgia! :3 *waves the Riku/Sora banner wildly back and forth* The Japanese is pretty easy to understand too (being a kid's game and all) so I'm pretty happy that I can figure out what's going on. ^_^ Go Team Skuld!

Thanksgiving hasn't even started yet, but the games have already begun. This is going on my list of 20-something things I have to do over the long weekend. Man, I just never have enough time. I suppose this means I won't be sleeping again. Ever. ^^;;

Ganked this little link off one of my friends, MillyFan who was recently wanked on Fandom_Wank, a stinking pile of fandom rejects and debris if I ever saw one.

Fanfiction.net:Fanfiction::Fandom_Wank:___________
a) fangirls with single-digit IQ
b) fangirls with low self-esteem
c) fangirls who think they're awesome (but really aren't)
d) fangirls with no lives (sex, social, or otherwise)
e) all of the above

That about sums up my opinion of Fandom Wank and all of its constituents. May the wank grow in such magnitude so as the entire community implodes upon reaching critical density, leaving only in its wake a black hole and event horizon as a warning to all fandom posterity to come.

At any rate, here's an amusing analysis of Fandom Wank put in more eloquent terms that I could ever have written.

Keep patting yourselves on the back, girls. I've given up on humanity already.

I've really got to stop it with this missing class thing.
I totally could've gotten up for my 9.07 Stats class this morning, because I was actually awake, but I opted for the sleep option anyway, having gone to bed at 4am earlier that morning.

Man, I am such a slacker. I have so much work to do this Thanksgiving, most of it to do with college applications and the like. :/ Poo poo. My roommate is also going to be gone, so it pretty much looks like I'm going to be bumming around alone from Wednesday to Sunday. I guess I don't really mind having my own time, it's nice once in a while to come home and have the room be empty and quiet, and I can sit down with some amaretto and nice cup of hot chocolate and read books, play videogames, or just doze on the couch. ^_^ Sounds like an awesome plan, if I ever heard of one.

Kakashi also hopes to be stopping by on Saturday-ish too, to keep me company and relieve me of my anti-social/hermitness. It'll be a nice break from keeping myself company. ^_^ I'll probably also be available on AIM during the weekend, so feel free to drop me a line (I'll try dropping you guys one) or give me a phone call, all of you whom I haven't talked to in ages.
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Anyhoos, if I can survive the workload this week (one lab report, one review paper, one presentation), I think I'll make it to Thanksgiving in shipshape.

Also, my sources have reminded me that today is fictional character Sakurazuka Seishirou's birthday. It's too bad he's dead, because well...he'd be yet another year older. But on the bright side, at least he's not aging any. ^^;; I personally think we should celebrate his deathday, but since CLAMP hasn't told us what that is, we've got to go with what we've got.

So yeah...Happy Birthday Seishirou, maybe I'll even turn out a drabble for you if I can somehow manage to beat your bunny into submission somewhere between my Legato bunny, that lab report, tae kwon do tonight (that can't hurt!) and my presentation on Wednesday.

Skuld loves music, yes she does. :3

Just downloaded the Steamboy soundtrack. Never got around to it before, dunno why. ^_^ The movie was only so-so when I watched it this summer, but the music is absolutely amazing. Rivalling Yoko Kanno's symphonic greatness? Why yes. :3 Even better, in fact.

Comment if you want me to send. ^_^

Also, if anybody has high-resolution stills of Steamboy, let me know. O_O The visuals in that movie were orgasmically amazing. Oooh, so much love for steampunk.

New layout! I guess you guys shouldn't be surprised at what it is this time. I wish I could've done more justice to the image (which is absolutely stunning), but this is all my rusty Photoshop skills can handle unfortunately. :/ Bleh. Might make some little adjustments after I get over the fact it's 8pm and I haven't even started my work yet.

*bangs head against wall*

Where do my days go?

My weekends end on Saturday. Boo.
This is usually because I have punted everything I need to do until Sunday, when I am immensely hosed. ^^;;

It' s a habit I don't think I'll ever break myself of.

Anyways, had an awesome weekend. ^_^ Friday night after getting out of lab, I met up with Zhango Squ, who owed me a dinner date because he wasn't able to make it my little no-more-GREs! celebration at Sunset last week.

We went to Sunset together. I ordered an oatmeal stout (I've found recently that I'm really getting fond of stouts) and we had a good time talking politics amongst other random things. When we got home we watched some Red Dwarf episodes (I was so happy to find out that sensei had watched a considerable amount of Red Dwarf too) and some episodes of Invader Zim. I spent a lot of time with sensei that night, and we had definite good times. Given our current Super Friends/Friend with Benefits status, I'll be happy to chill with him whenever he makes it down here. ^_^

So much of Friday night and Saturday morning was spent with Kakashi. After he left, Destra and I got to watching 1776, which is another musical that makes me very nostalgic. ^_^ I spent the afternoon bumming around and restoring my Photoshop Brush and Font collection, before heading off to hang out with Will for his 23rd birthday.

We hit Sunset, an absolutely horrible lounge named "Tonic" that's in the Sunset area (it's the worst thing ever...seriously, don't ever go there unless you're part of the yuppie crowd, and Finale, an expensive, posh desserterie in Hahvahd Square. ^_^ Spent a lot of money, but met some awesome people and generally had an awesome time. :3 It was much better than Will's birthday last year, during which he got horrendously drunk, punched to hell and back again, and had very little memory past the first hour of his party. (That's about when he passed out, if I remember correctly.)

Anyways, awesome weekend. ^_^ Hopefully someone'll be able to spare time to hang out with me next (Thanksgiving) weekend, but if not, no hard feelings. I'll be sitting at home with the 'puter, the shiny intarweb, the videogames, and the fanfiction.

I'm trying to figure out whether the world just loves me...or hates me so much it wants to accelerate me towards my doom even faster than I'm currently driving myself.

I probably should've suspected this whole conspiracy was building up to something...I should've smelled it when I was in Japan when I saw the posters for Takarazuka doing a production of the Yeston version of "Phantom." (Oh my god, a cast full of HOT JAPANESE WOMEN. O_o;; *knees turn consistency of pudding*)

Then I found out the movie's coming out...and then I start fangirling with Ginga...and then I start writing het Erik/Christine drabbles (I blame Ginga!) ...and then I'm reading the paper this morning on the bus and what do I see an ad for? The stage musical is coming to Boston in the spring (March-May).

ARGH!
*bangs head against wall*

It's all a conspiracy to get me back into the Phantom fandom again! I haven't even looked much less given a shit about since 7th grade!

...wargh. :F

The world is out to get me, I swear. >(

So yeah...
who here in Boston wants to go see the stage musical with me?
I know Asphodel is in. Drop me a comment if you want to see it and I'll organize a group.

Latest news from the Naruto manga points strongly in the direction that...

Kakashi is the new Subaru.

O________o;;

Now am I absolutely convinced that Kishimoto is really CLAMP in disguise.

Looks like they've released a list of the select cities that the Phantom movie will be showing in. Basically, if you live in a city with a population on the order of 10^4 or so, you're probably getting it. That means 'yes' for Salt Lake City. :3 I am so hauling my little ass over the movie theatre if there's a midnight showing the night of the 21st. O_O;; And I'm dragging Charm and Crystal with me...cause they obviously don't have any say this matter. ^_^ *grin*

I'm going to know the movie so well by the time I get to Chicago to partake in the festivities with the ex and the Ginga. ^_^ Yay!

On interesting news my mother is staying in China with Dad for an extra week and a half or so, so that means that for the first 3 days of my trip home to SLC my parents aren't going to be there. Which means that I get to spend the first three days of my trip home at Charm and Crystal's house. It'll be interesting, to say the least. XD I wonder what awesome quotes we'll make this time, because last year's were pretty good:

Skuld: Wow Crystal, you're as thin as a rock.
Crystal and Charm: .... .... ... XD

Charm (while playing Uno): What color is it? :D
Skuld and Crystal: =_=;; *sweatdrop*

Skuld (still playing Uno): Pick a color.
Charm: Four!
Skuld and Crystal: ... ... o_o

Yeah, we're crazy. :3

On the conflicted side of things, I've been wondering whether or not to apply for the Kawamura Fellowship, which is a program for MIT and Harvard students where we get to visit Japan for 5 weeks and "get introduced its culture" whatever the hell that's supposed to mean. I guess it means we get to talk to semi-important people (including politicians, from what I hear) and bum around Japan for 5 weeks. :3 I'm seriously considering going back to Japan this summer because it was so totally awesome last summer, but I don't want to go back and do work. I want to go back and have the free time to bum and travel whenever I want.

So this Kawamura Fellowship thing lasts from July 5 to August 8, which is why I'm actually having second thoughts about this. I missed a lot at Otakon last year, and I'd hate to miss Otakon again this year, but come on people, it's JAPAN. O_o;; *sweatdrops*

Otakon...or JAPAN.
Otakon...OR JAPAN.

I guess it shouldn't really be a difficult decision for me, but it actually is. Japan people, I LOVE Japan. I miss Japan like hell. And if I get into this program, I'm going to be able go to summer Comiket again. O_o;; *knees go all woozy*

Otakon had better come up with a damn good reason for me to stay in the States (ie: they're going to have Asian Kung-Fu Generation or Orange Range in concert, or they're going to have Seki Toshihiko as a guest) or I might just go ahead and apply to this thing.

The information meeting session is at 4pm today, but I'm stuck at work. *sniffles* Oh well. ._. *shakes fist* If Japan loves me, they'll let me go back! :D

I lurve Carlos. He's one of my professors for 9.12 (Experimental Molecular Neurobiology) and he is one of the funniest professors aside from Chip Quinn. XD After the main part of the lecture was over he spent time us with drawing us a flow chart of our lives as Ph.D students and then our lives as med students, with misery, amount of years of spent, and money down the drain/salary. It was hilarious. XD I want to be a professor so I can be just like Carlos and Chip one day. :3 I'll be the weirdest/coolest professor ever. ^_^

In addition to class awesomeness today, I found out that I'm not the only one in my little corner of Phantom fandom, I also have Ginga, who's going to go see Phantom with me when I hang 'round Chicago for 4 days visiting Roni. :3 Dudes. Phantom fangirls have been crawling out of the woodwork ever since the movie started being hyped. ^_______^ Whee!

If you want to be on the "List of People Skuld has to see Phantom With," drop me a line or a comment. So far the list consists only of Destra, Asphodel, Kakashi-sensei, and Ginga. ^_^

Gerard Butler is the yummy yummers. ^_^ I hear he's also slated to play Beowulf in the new movie. ._. *sighs* Maybe after the movie comes out people will be enticed to read John Garnder's Grendel which is one of the most amazing pieces of creative fiction I have ever had the pleasure to read. ^_^

Last but not least, I managed to find this off PubMed courtesy of Ari. O_o;; If anybody goes to a school who has access to the Journal of Abnormal Psychology and wants to send me a PDF copy of that paper...please do.

It will please me immensely and I shall gloat.

D'oh. I stayed up late last night, woke up early this morning and skipped my first class all to finish the papers I was writing up for 9.12. And now I have printed them out on the printer at home and forgotten them conveniently as I was making my way to school.

*annoyed as hell* :/ I am t3h suck.

I hope they let me turn it in tomorrow, because I did do it and I don't want it to be late! >( Too bad I don't have time to go and grab it before the class begins...*huge heaving sigh*

On other, unhappy notes, I only have about 55 GB left on my happy, huge drive, and I realized last night as I was installing my DVD drive that I don't have any more power plugs, so if I want to install a second hard drive I'd have to take out my current 40GB thing. :/ Dammit Sasuke, you with all your lights and your fans are taking up power plugs that I need! Dagnabbit, Sasuke! >(

Oh, the price of vanity.

I figured it was about time I bought a DVD burner for myself, since Sasuke was unhappy lacking a DVD drive and all. I just never really found a use for a DVD until now, when all the games are all DVD-ROMs.

So far I have managed to restrain myself from playing the Sims 2, but who knows what might happen now that I have a lovely graphics card and a DVD burner? Oh yes, so much love. ^_^ Slowly but surely, Sasuke is getting all the upgrades to make him happy. I suppose the only thing left to do at this point is plug another 512 RAM chip into him to complete his happiness. O_o;;

and maybe another hard drive or two.

Or that new flatscreen monitor my sister's been telling me to look into. ^_^
17" or 19"? Hmm...it'll depend on what her budget is. :3 I love my sister. <3

It's 2am, and I'm still working on my first paper, but I am such a happy puppy in terms of getting cool shit. I was going to buy myself Meine Liebe as a Christmas present, but I think this new DVD-burner is it. :/ Gads, I wish I weren't so poor.

So work never actually happened last night, which I guess is all right since not only did not I have any assignments due today (for the first time in ages! Huzzah!), the amount of shit-giving has hit an all-time low for me. In a rather pathetic attempt to make that sound like a good thing, I'm going to say that my apathy has hit an all-time high (because things hitting all-time highs sounds better and feels more positive than things hitting all-time lows ^_^) and I will be gratutiously ignoring the fact that shit-giving and apathy are directly inversely proportional.

To recap awesome things happening in the past few days:

Kyou Kara Maou: is apparently 3rd on the popularity ratings in Newtype, behind Gundam SEED and Fullmetal Alchemist (henceforth to be referred to by me as "Fullmental Alchemist"). That fact along completely boggles my mind. Kyou Kara Maou has below-average animation quality, a so-so storyline, an annoying as hell main character...and yet it somehow has risen near the top of the Newtype charts and still has my attention.

Oh wait, that's because it's as blatantly shounen-ai as you can get without crossing the blatant shounen-ai threshold. Oh, the power of fangirls. Look at what we're doing. We're mainstreaming our previously underground culture. We're giving our gay boys exposure. I think I'm feeling positive enough to be proud. ^_________^

So watch Kyou Kara Maou people, if you want to see silly stuff and lots of not-so-implicit gayness. :3 WolframxYuuri forever!

Gankutsuou: Holy crap, now I know why the quality in Samurai 7 turned to shit. It's because Gonzo was churning out this beauty. Gankutsuou, an on-crack retelling of The Count of Monte Cristo is stunning. Absolutely beautiful. Makes me drool all over the fucking place. *blawah* There are some alterations to the storyline (as always expected) but it is still wonderful. ^_^ Watch it, if you want to see pretty colors all over the place.

Red Dwarf: I'd been looking for torrents for this when torrent itself first came out, but that stopped quickly because I couldn't find anything. At last, I have found Red Dwarf torrents, and I now have all of seasons 1-7 on my computer. ^_^ Squee! Unfortunately the majority of the DVD rips are from the Japanese DVDs, in which a few untranslateable jokes were edited out. :/ I was actually kind of disappointed at that. ._. *sighs* But at this point in time, I'll take what I can get and look for the unedited versions later.

I mean seriously, how in hell do you translate in Japanese Cat saying, "Thanski verski muchski budski!" when he's attempting to speak Bulgarian?

Oh well, beggars can't be choosers. :x I'll take my 95% pure Red Dwarf and fly with it.

Whee! ^_^ Sunset was a total blast. :3 Only four people aside from me showed up: Destra, Alex, Camille, and Big Hentai Mike, but it was cool anyways. Had myself some boneless chicken wings (they were amazingly tender) and a pint of raspberry beer, which was fruity and sweet and absolutely delicious.

After that we headed over to Do Re Mi for awesome karaoke goodness (highlights of the evening were belting out "Yuuwaku," "Ready Steady Go!" and "Bohemian Rhapsody" horribly off key) for an hour before heading off home. Alex and Destra headed off to bed immediately, but I stayed up to watch some episodes of Invader Zim with the rest of the house. ^_^

It's the end of Sunday right now, and I can proudly say that I've spent my entire day doing nothing and watching fun things like Red Dwarf, Kyou Kara Maou, and Farewell My Concubine. (Okay, Farewell My Concubine isn't quite under the 'fun' category, but it's still a really good movie nevertheless.)

Oh yeah, and I've spent a lot of time dyeing my hair red today too. ^_^

Lookee! I have red hair!

Destra got a haircut this weekend, so now she looks like Arisawa Shiho from Tokimeki Memorial Girls Side. O_o Check it out.

And a shout-out to all my Team RiVAL buddies from last week. ^_^ Here's Ducky, Little Mike, and Alex/Beren One-Hand.

I guess it's about time I actually tried to get some work done. ^^;;

I think I did okay on my GREs. O_o;; Considering it was the Psych GRE and I'm not as up on psych as I am on general topics of neuroscience, I made educated guesses on a lot of the questions. O_o;;

Let's hope I've been well-educated. *big sweatdrop*

Anyways, party at Sunset tonight! Woooo!!!

And now that I have time, hopefully I'll be dropping y'all e-mails and writing more drabbles! ^_^ Yes, drabbles! I have time to finish that other KnivesxLegato fic I've started in addition to get my ass working on Miles 4.

I'm FREE!

FREE! (Like Sol Badguy.)

I feel so awesome. ^_^ <3

At this point in my life I realize I can't look back anymore.

I have recommendation letters from Dr. Lisa Spirio of 3DM Inc. (who created PuraMatrix, one of the award recipients of the R&D 100 this year), awesome-Lera-from-Stanford, Fujita-sensei, and Dr. Robert Langer (THE hotshot professor of biomedical engineering) and if I don't fuck up tomorrow...

I think I have a good shot at getting into one of the grad schools I want to go to.

At this time, I can't afford to look back and see all the people, the good times, the places I will leave behind me when I go to grad school. We're all walking divergent paths away from each other, and I wonder if sometime in our future we'll ever meet again.

GREs tomorrow (Sat) morning.
Sunset drinking-and-eating tomorrow (Sat) night at 7pm. Meet at Fenway at 6:15pm.

Be there or be left in the dust.

I love it when memes just sort of inherently know how much I rock.

Observe:

Ganked these from my dear MillyFan. I love late-night silliness.

Destra and I have invented a new Japanese word.

Here it is:

sukecchi

...that's right! Combining the best of sukebe and ecchi, we bring you: "sukecchi!"

And what does the word mean? You might have to say it out loud a few times.

DISCUSS.

I usually like the middle of the week. It means the majority of my hosage (thanks, 9.12) is over. Unfortunately, it also means that I haven't done ANY STUDYING for my subject GREs yet. >_> Yes, that's very bad. Very, very, very, bad. Subject GREs are pretty-ass important too. *sighs* Since Stanford wants them, I'm going to have to take them. Thankfully not UCSF though, which is where I'm still shooting for. *praypraypray*

Anyways, I've got the sitting for my senior portraits in a couple of weeks. :3 I want my portrait to be weird, I want it to be me-ish. I plan on having my hair cut, rebleached, and redyed by then, probably a bright red. (Red definitely looks better on me than blue does.) I was wondering if you guys had any suggestions of what I ought to wear to my portraits. Usually people go in suits and ties and nice blouses, but I have heard of people going in a bear costume. >_> I think I should do something that's uniquely me, but I can't really quite decide what that is. >_>

Does that mean going in cosplay? Does that mean coming in my pajamas? Or what I usually wear? A hawaiian shirt? A hoodie? I don't know.

The question's out there, you guys help me answer it.

In the meantime, my 9.07 problem set is LATE and I have to finish it tonight.
...boo.

EDIT: Wanna know what's sad? How many voids in my life fanfiction fills nowadays. I blame this all upon Destra, who recs me fics like no other mother because she is the most fanfictionny person on the planet.

Now I find myself buried in a cute Sephiroth-Cloud-Zack fic. <3 (And for some reason, Cloud in here sort of reminds me of Omi. Go figure.) So much love for Destra. So much love for fanfiction-that-fills-voids.

If only it weren't just the time.

You know how some days you just want to hit the sack early and tackle all your work and everything else in your life in the morning?

Yeah, it's one of those days.

It's 11:30pm my friends, and I am going to bed.

See you at 5:30 or 6am.

Concentration is so difficult at 2am when you're staring at a 14-page paper from Neuron trying to make it make sense when nothing at all in it is explained, and sitting happily on your computer is the entire series of Trigun. ¬_¬ (At least I've finished reading the paper, I'm not sure if it really makes sense to me, even now.)

While I do admit that Trigun is not the best series ever (Utena, Gungrave and Escaflowne definitely top Trigun in my book), I do have quite a lot of fondness for the series because of Legato Bluesummers and Vash the Stampede. (^_^ <3 *warm fuzzies*) And man, it was tough last night after my little Seki Toshihiko dance/moment-of-pure-ecstatic-bliss not to pull up my favorite scenes in Trigun (episode 14's hot dog scene, episode 15's mass slaughter scene, and episode 24 death scene) and just close my eyes and listen to them while I swoon.

This having a 160 GB hard drive thing is really not doing good things for my (lack of) study habits, especially since I am hosed up the wazoo this week. Hence the declaration of radio silence on my AIM screenname.

I guess I'm kind of glad I'm busy though, it keeps me from thinking of things like emotional baggage that I really don't need to get in my way right now. (Subject GREs on Saturday morning. I am so scrod.)

Anyways, this Saturday I am heading over Sunset Bar and Grill to get myself totally plastered after the completion of my GREs and most of my hosage. You are all welcome to join me in great eats. You don't have to drink if you don't want to. Please RSVP if you know for sure you can come. :3

Been watching anime, though I seriously don't think I have the time to be doing so. ._. *sighs*

Anyways, finally got around to watching Kyou Kara Maou, and though I've only seen the first three episodes, that series is innuendo-licious. While I won't say it's blatantly gay, it's probably the next closest thing. Squee!

Also sort of skimmed through the first raw episode of Meine Liebe, an anime based up on a girls dating sim ...and I think one of the reasons I really wanted to see it (besides having the torrent, the time, and the space on my harddrive) is that Seki Toshihiko, one of my favorite seiyuu of all time, voices an incredibly hot bishounen named Ludwig.

I've known Seki Toshihiko from before the days that I discovered him in Trigun. I think I might've first seen him as Duo Maxwell in Gundam Wing. Anyways, his Legato-voice is amazing. O_O;; It makes my knees turn to jelly every single time I hear it. (Especially in Osaka-ben!) I keep pseudo-stalking his anime roles (more like I bump into him from time to time, as Sanzou in Saiyuki, Watari in Yami no Matsuei, not!Kakyuu in the X movie, Riki in Ai no Kusabi, Luva in Angelique, Iruka-sensei in Naruto), but never have I ever heard him do his Legato-voice for another role.

...until I watched Meine Liebe. O_________O

Destra can verify this, but I sort of made some twirly leap from my computer and fell down on my knees half-draped over the couch in ecstasy the first time he opened his mouth to speak.

Seki Toshihiko pulls out his Legato-voice for Ludwig in Meine Liebe. Oh my god, it's so gorgeous. *spasms* I get to hear his beautiful voice yet more times. I'll have to be investing in a larger and sturdier drool bucket for everytime he speaks.

I must get my hands on this dating sim game. O_O I MUST HAVE MEINE LIEBE. So you know, I can close my eyes and pretend Legato is saying sweet, love-love things to me. (Okay, that's a weird image. :/ I think I'll just pretend he's saying them to Knives instead. ^_^ <3 There, much better.)

I'm so totally going to be waiting in anticipation for the "aishiteru" or the "aishitemasu."

*melts all over computer*

^______________________^ <3
Kyaaaa!!! *fangirl mode*

Anyways, lots of things have been happening today. Ridii/Beren Alex One-Hand has returned for a short visit from Houston where he has decided to reside, and it's great hanging out with him. I'll really miss the guy when he leaves back for Texas. There goes my hardcore Tolkien/One Piece buddy. *sniffles*

On other news, Roni and I have separated, but on good terms. I won't give the details of our breakup here, but let's suffice it to say that while I love her and she loves me, there are some fundamental differences and distances between us that cannot be bridged at this time. I think, though, that we will remain good friends. ^_^ I care about her too much to let her fade out of my life.

Perhaps in the future, if we are living and working in the same place, we may get together again. Or we might just stay good friends. I don't think the break up will change much of anything between us. She's still coming for Anime Boston and I am still going to visit her for New Year's where we will gorge ourselves on anime and video games. For the past year (we've almost been together a year, our first anniversary would have been November 16th) Roni has taught me a lot of things. She's taught me how to be a better person, she's taught me a lot about what it means to care for someone, a lot about how to overcome differences, and a lot about myself and my identity as a girl, a woman, a boy, a man, and as little old me.

Roni and I have made some great memories, and we've made some awesome roleplay. I hope we can continue our SolxKy at some point in the future.

Roni will always be a special person in my life, whose memories I'll cherish.

and I won't say anything stupid like, "Goodbye" or "Thank You" because that would mean that things are over. I don't think they are. I think something new in our relationship has just begun.

And I guess...We'll always have... Guilty Gear. >_>

...or summat like that.

Take that, GREs. :3

Verbal: 630
Quantitative/Math: 740

Yeah, verbal's kind of low, but then again, the verbal section of the GRE is HARD. :/ Stupid words I've never seen before. *grumble*

Anyways, I was expecting a 750 on Math, but considering how much I panicked during the math section, I'm surprised I pulled out decently.
Go me, I suppose. :3

Yay!

Now time for subject GREs next Saturday...*praypraypray*

...and I feel like shit.

It comforts me to know that a lot of people on my Friends List feel the same way. We are shocked, we are disappointed, we are angry, we are betrayed, and we are counting down the seconds to disaster.

Oh wait, disaster has already arrived.

I think Wil Wheaton has summed up a lot of my sentiments before the elections began, but I have more to add since seeing the results.

I am proud of John Kerry, because he accepted defeat like a man. He has the courage to go out there in public, amidst his disappointed but cheering supporters in the face of losing the most important election of our lifetime. In face of another four years of war, another four years of terrorism, another four years of American Imperialism and stick-brandishing, he is able to get up there and speak proudly. Go Johny Kerry. He would have made a wonderful President, orders and orders of magnitudes better than Bush. But the American people, 99.9% of whom are stupider, less cultured, less educated, than I am, have decided.

I hope you all know that you have screwed us all over.

Looking at the distribution of votes, it was alarming to me. Bush won the center and the South, and Kerry won the coasts. It's obvious what's going on here, America is divided. It's so hotly divided, I can easily see it spiraling downwards into something more akin to Vietnam or the Civil War. I have never seen friends, family, a country whose people are so passionately at odds with each other. This is something that questions the very foundations of what Democracy is, and it frightens me. This is flaw in the very principle of our government, but that's not what I'm here to talk about today. I'll talk about how flawed democracy is later.

First, look at the distribution of votes. It's pretty obvious to me that the country is divided into what is considered 'urban' and 'rural.' Kerry won in states housing the largest and more influential cities of this country: Boston, New York, Philadelphia, Chicago, Los Angeles, San Francisco. Bush has won the rural states. It is obvious to me that there is a large and deep divide between the two American cultures, the pastoral and the city-dweller. This tells me that there are two kinds of American, two very different types between which there is very little common ground, save for a lot of anger and resentment. This is about as divided as our country gets.

I ask the people who live in the central states, who voted for Bush, who pays the price when the terrorists come, huh? It's us, who live in the cities. It is clear from our standpoint that we have to vote Kerry. Four more years of Bush mean four more years of terrorism, four more years of war, four more years of doing whatever the hell he wants to do, enforcing his religious-backed agenda and curtailing the freedoms of our country. Don't you people see that while Bush is up on his podium preaching about freedom and liberation and the American dream, he is squashing every single one of these things?

Bush has trapped our nation in a useless war we don't want to be a part of. Bush has claimed to stand for freedom yet he seeks to limit the rights of the citizens in his own namely; namely the rights of homosexuals to marry. Bush has trapped the innocent Iraqi citizens in a state of guerilla warfare. He has trapped our Allies into a war they are reluctant to participate in, and he has done this all in the name of setting them free. This is as ridiculous as WWI when they claimed it was "the war to end all wars." The ends don't justify the means, and abolishing the end by using those means something that is even more ludicrous. All Bush is going to do is lead us further and further down the wrong path, at the his whim and the whim of his administration.

As long as Bush is President, America will never be free.

We will continue to terrorize and be terrroized.

In the next four years, Bush will do more damage to this country than an entire legion of future Democrat presidents can undo. I hope for the sake of this country, there is some supreme being watching over us, and that it realizes what a dire situation we are in now. I hope this isn't some big joke, because it's not funny and it's not kind.

And I'll tell you this, all of you who hide behind the phrase, "Well, I'm entitled to my opinion," yeah, you are entitled to your opinion.

But guess what. Your opinion is WRONG. People can and often do have wrong opinions. That's just straight fact. If you believe in creationism, guess what, science has proved you're WRONG but you are certainly entitled to your ignorant opinion. If you think the sky is green you're WRONG but yeah, you can think whatever idiocies you want to.

Bush is WRONG for this country, wrong for this global society, and since he's already shown us how badly in four years he can FUCK EVERYTHING UP, I think you pussies should have gotten off your asses and taken a shot at the other guy. I won't say, "it can't get worse" but at least with Kerry we don't have a 100% outlook of things going down the drain socially, economically, politically, entirely.

I think all you people who say, "Well, I have my opinion and you have yours," are just WEAK WUSSES who are too afraid to admit that you might be incorrect, and would rather push the prospect out of your tiny little minds than admit that you might be at fault.

It is for precisely this reason that I despise how cognitive dissonance theory works.
It works. Dammit, it works, and all y'all make it work.

I feel sick.

I have my GREs are 9am tomorrow morning. I will be open to whining, bitching, and otherwisely feeling miserable because of the sorry state of affairs this country will be in.

My body is also sore all over from Tae Kwon Do Monday night. But if you wish to gloat, you're still going to get a fist and footful of angry, disappointed, disillusioned, bitter, and betrayed!Skuld in your face. I WILL beat the shit out of you...and I will justify it by saying that I'm freeing the world from a threat to its security.

Late-night fangirling, because I can't work tonight. :/ There's a a new-ish trailer out on the Japanese site (yeah, you know what I'm fangirling about), and I heard the soundtrack comes out on Nov. 23rd.

I'm so reliving my 7th grade days here. :3 *squee*

Also, if you guys saw the HBO mini-series version of Tony Kushner's "Angels in America" you'll realize that the guy who plays Raoul is the same guy who plays the gay Mormon, Joe Pitt. *evil grin*

I think the slash possibilities of this are looking up. ^_^ Yes, I can slash ANYTHING and EVERYTHING I choose. (Though sometimes I refrain for sake of the sanity of my audience.) Now to find myself a slash fandom for this...*sweatdrop*

Ooh, and GGXX #Reload for PC just finished downloading. Well, there goes my night, y'know. -_-;; *sigh* Must at least finish reading this paper. =_= Blargle. Work sucks.

I just twisted something in my back while practicing roundhouse kicks. :/

Obviously my body hates physical exertion, and me as well. -_-

TB cosplayers. O_o;;

teh pretties. O_o

I want the Seishirou. :p~~~~~~~O

In my bed. RIGHT NOW.

Let me keep drooling so I can forget how shitty I did on my midterm.