April 2006 Archives

KYAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

d0000000000d. So I finally found the drama for Love Seeker, which is this yaoi manga I first found summer of 2004 when I was in Japan. XD I picked up this random volume of Drap, and Love Seeker was the first story in there. :D I now have the first two volumes of the manga, and they're two of my favorite yaoi manga out there.

Fast forward to...oh...about 20 minutes ago. I downloaded the Drama CD for Love Seeker...and it almost goes EXACTLY BY THE MANGA. Everything the characters say is written down page for page in the manga. HOLY SHIT, HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! I was listening to the drama CD and following in the book, and it's totally like those picture books that came with the cassette tapes I had when I was kid. Do you guys remember those?!

EXCEPT THIS IS BETTER! BECAUSE IT HAS GAY PORN!

AWESOME! I feel like I've just won the day.

I'm punting. I keep finding everything to do except for my work (which consists of reading two chapters out of a textbook. Honestly, not all that bad but I just can't manage to find the activation energy to do it). I can't even get off my ass to do cosplay, which I REALLY need to get done. I forgot to register for Anime Boston (oh well, the non-pre-reg is probably shorter than the regular reg line, as always), I still haven't bought tickets, I narrowly passed my last exam, and in general I just sort of feel like I'm a mess.

Which is odd, because I'm one of the most on-top-of-shit people I know. *sighs* I can't believe the burnout is still getting to me. =____=

So I sit here...punting my work...and all I'm doing is downloading Boys Love Drama CDs. Which I am probably never going to listen to. Maybe I should decide one night just to start playing them really loud and see what the roommates say. X3 Or not say. *fufufufu*

Anyways, here's a meme I ganked from Kuchren

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. I pick my split ends when I have nothing else to do. This usually happens when I'm imagining fanfiction, personal AUs, or just trying to come up with ideas. It's a really bad and time consuming habit I've been trying to kick for years with moderate success. The urge is so bad sometimes it feels like OCD.

2. I snuggle with a car in bed. I shit you not. I never slept with my arms wrapped around a stuffed animal as a kid, so most of the time when I try now the plushie ends up on the floor next to me when I wake up. Not the hachi-roku though. I wrap myself around that thing, and it's the most comfy thing (this includes people) I have ever slept with.

3. I think anime men are way more attractive than ones in real life. :( I hate to admit this, but I think it's true. It also goes the same for women, except for a select few girls who I think are totally amazing. (Mostly the ones like Mel-Mel and Roni who I've had relationships with. They are way hotter than any anime chick will ever be.) I think I'm doomed as the female version of Densha Otoko for life. :/

4. I have gender issues. And I think I always will. I think I'll always want to be a little boy. What stops me from actually trying to pass as a guy is because I have the fangirl inside me that is so female it's ridiculous, and because I'd never want to be a MAN. I just want to be a BOY. So I think I'll settle for TOMBOY. That's a good gender to be.

5. I hate peanut butter but like peanuts, and I hate cucumbers but I love pickles.

6. When Freud wrote all that shit about girls having penis envy, he was in fact writing about me. From this we have learned: 1) it's not good to base your theories off an n of 1, and 2) it's not good to base any sort of psychological theory off me.

I tag:

The Clone
Mommy! :D
Destra
Kakashi-sensei
NovionSolarius
...and whoever the hell wants to do this. :p

Like many of you guys know already,

I AM COMING TO ANIME BOSTON.

This means that plans must be made! I have no idea what plane flights I'm coming in on yet, but likely I will be landing sometime Thursday night, and probably leaving on Monday afternoon. Monday has been chosen because I figure I wouldn't mind a half day of hanging out with my buddies. :D

That said, I will probably be living at good old Fenway House while I'm out there, that is if I don't crash at somebody's pad or hotel room sometime during the con. It's a pity I'll miss Steer Roast this year, but at least I'll have the time to hang out with you guys. :D I am definitely going to plan a trip to Sunset (I need my 400 beers!); that will probably happen either Friday or Sunday night, cause Saturday night is just waaaay too crowded with a large group.

I will definitely have my Samurai Champloo Jin costume done by then, and possibly something ghetto like Fujiwara Takumi from Initial D. :p While I'm on the subject of cosplay, does anybody have a katana I can borrow as Jin? >___> please please please please please? ;________; I'd bring mine, but they probably wouldn't let me on the plane with it (cargo or not), and shipping it around is probably too much trouble. As an extra incentive, if you let me borrow your katana, I will buy you a beer! :p

See all you Boston folks there!

DAVE BOUGHT A MOTORCYCLE! And I just got a ride on it around the block! (Yes, I know how bad that sounded, and it was totally not meant in that way. ¬_¬)

You guys have no idea how huge the pressure is for me to get a bike now too. But...I'm holding out for a car. I'm holding out for that car that loves me, drifts me, and turns me into a grease monkey. :F

Rawr. In the meantime, I guess I'll beg for rides from Dave and Evan. XD

That's it...I'm officially hooked.
I need more NANA!

恋の傷はどうすれば直るかな。やっぱり新しい恋をしるしかない。デーブにいいアドバイスだと思うけど、NANAを見るかな。

I am finally downloading the manga. XD Why do I always jump on the bandwagon way too late?

I really shouldn't have gotten pressured into seeing the Silent Hill movie. I'm quite terrible at taking horror films cause it's the gore that really gets to me. :/ And I'm the type to sit down and think about it for a long time afterwards too, no matter how much I try not to. =_______=;; I know I won't be able to sleep tonight unless I:

1) listen to a whole shitload of Initial D eurobeat
2) watch some One Piece
3) watch some Gakuen Heaven or something other yaoi thing

*sighs* I see about one horror flick every 6 years. :/ And every time I see one I have trouble sleeping for a couple of nights. Thanks, overactive imagination.

Maybe I'll just curl up in my Luffy costume and let the awesome piratey-ness save me from t3h scary. XD

EDIT: Well, it's morning now. I ended up, at Dave's suggestion last night, gulping down a beer before going to bed. It didn't help my racing heartbeat, but it did help me sleep/doze. I put on the Wangan Midnight soundtracks (yeah, trance!) to help me sleep too, but I think I kept waking up every song change. =____= I slept really badly until 6am wherein the sun came up, I got up, turned my speakers off, and finally managed to get some real sleep.

Had some hilarious dreams where all my neuroscience friends and I were living in the same house (imagine Fenway) and we had to take care of each other's pets. They were mostly chunky, fat hedgehogs and guinea pigs. Don't ask me why. XD

The time must come to say goodbye
Because nothing can live forever...

WANGAN MIDNIGHT MAXTUNE2 fucking rules! The Reina GT-R...and the Blackbird and the Devil Z?! HELLS YEAH.

And now...a a completely non-emo friends-locked LiveJournal entry.

I'm glad I'm not emo. I'm glad that nothing can get me down and depressed. I'm glad that no matter what happens to me I pick myself back up and keep going. I'm glad I'm a Luffy-type of person. Cause you know, I wouldn't want myself to be any other way.

I'm an aunt! :D My sister had her first baby today by C-section! It's a boy, his name is Alexander, and I'm heading over to Switzerland sometime this summer to visit.

^____^v Gotta corrupt the kids while they're young!

I just had a great idea for a mystery hunt puzzle: cleverly hiding a Magic Knight Rayearth puzzle in the form of cars. Or maybe a car puzzle in the form of Magic Knight Rayearth. :p

Mazda Lantis
Eagle Vision
Geo Metro
Subaru Alcyone
Chevrolet Nova
Nissan Primera
Isuzu Aska
Aston Martin Zagato
Nissan Presea
Honda Civic Ferio
Mitsubishi Emeraude
Honda Rafaga
Toyota Caldina
Honda Ascot Innova
(Mazda) Autozam Clef

See, CLAMP likes cars too. Shitty, commuter cars.

This list took a lot of google to compile, cause much to my misfortune, CLAMP has bad taste. I submit that they should add three new MKR characters, named Skyline, Lancer Evolution, and WRX STi.

All y'all Mystery Hunters not on my team better forget about this entry.

I finished the first cycle (races 1-20) of MaxTune2 today. :D In my pretty 350Z which wins on the straightaways but makes me cry on the corners. Hard as fuckin' hell to handle. o__O I'm surprised I beat the Reina GT-R, the Blackbird, and The Devil Z on my first try. Sheesh. Stages 21 and up are HARD. HARD HARD HARD. I'm losing to C-level people man, that just shouldn't happen.

Anyways, I've started a blue R32 and wow...it grips. It grips like hell. Turns I can't take without scraping walls in my 350Z, I turn smoothly in my R32. *cries* I think I'm going to call him my Baby Blue. :D My 350Z doesn't have a name yet. How sad is that?

It's hot chicks like this who make me:

1) love women
2) wish I was an FTM again.

Screw Ace bandage, before I cosplay as Jin, I am going to have to sit around one day and play with some tape. (If any of you guys have suggestions, drop a comment.)

I think one of the reasons I never really went through anything heavy with the whole female-to-male thing is that I realized I'm more free to do what I want as a boy in a girl's body, than as a girl in a boy's body. Hello, society double standard. I think I'm mostly comfortable with my gender identity of "tomboy."
I'd probably be more comfortable if I had a flat chest. :p

More hot pictures of this cosplayer here. Link courtesy of 4chan, as always.

Happy Easter Sunday to y'all. :D

I am going to spend it studying and getting caught up with Japanese homework.

And after spending an afternoon playing softball yesterday...OW. OW. I hurt. Somebody come over and give me a massage. ;_________;

Shinomiya Kouji

ゲット！

...and now back to work for me. :p I think I've figured out how to start working on getting Nakajima...

And since I'm curious to see how the rest of you guys measure up to the fans in Japan...which guy is "your type?" X3

Despite how much I love Nakajima's glasses and Naruse's shameless smarm, I'm gonna have to go with Niwa Tetsuya. I think I'm saving his ending for last. :D

EDIT: Apparently the PC and the PS2 version of Gakuen Heaven are quite different, because the PS2 version has a lot of the porn cut out. :/ Somebody remind me why I'm playing this game again? Oh, right. FOR THE GAY PORN. What's in the PC version is pretty softcore already and they cut out more for the PS2?! JESUS! No wonder I've been beating my head against walls trying to figure out how to get those scenes I have screenshots (from the PC version) of but are mysteriously missing in the run-throughs I've done on my PS2.

Knowing this, it makes Nakajima's ending almost not worth getting. (Unless they inserted in something new and shiny) Cause I won't get this scene. And the Kazuki ending must suck too. No bending over his desk and getting godly buttsecked?

Boo. :(

I don't think I got into the RIKEN program this summer. My roommate, Evan, has already received an acceptance e-mail from them, but I haven't yet. :/ Guess it means I didn't get in. .____. Woe. *sniffles*

Guess that means I'll head to Switzerland this summer to visit my nephew. ^^;;

On the up side of things, we first year Neuroscience kids have an intramural softball team now. :3 Our first game is on Wednesday, and we're called The Empty Pitchers. We practiced out in the park today, and I got hit by the ball 6 times. =_____=;; Ow. I used to be a monster with the bat as a kid. I miss those times. Though I do have to admit I was never very good at catching back then either. :p I haven't had this many bruises on my body since that swordfighting thing I did in high school.

I think my friends and I have started a weekly ritual. Friday nights + Curb + Pizza + t3h stonage

Wooooooooow.

Ooof. Unagi don. Haven't had it in months, I am full of squee. and food. Now just to sit back and digest.

and *sigh* I think I've hit a wall in Initial D. Not sure whether I should take a break and concentrate on MaxTune, or whether just to keep beating my head against it, cause if brute force doesn't work, you're not using enough.

:D Evan practiced riding on his motorcycle tonight. XD Huge, open UCLA parking lot at 11pm with nobody around. *laughs* :D

Dave was there too, cause he knows how to ride. He let me ride behind him, cause my hands were too small for the clutch and the front brake on Evan's bike and therefore I couldn't ride. ;____; Man, I missed riding on a motorcyle. :D Seiji in Japan used to take me around occasionally, and it was buttloads of fun. Auggghh...now the big question. Should I get a bike or a car? =___=

デーブにもっと好きになった！俺の気持ちいつはっきり伝えるかな。

Just finished watching the second episode of Gakuen Heaven. Hmm...they're doing the plot quite differently from the plot of the game. It was much simpler in the game when you started off, and instead of introducing the characters in one whole slew, it seems the writers have chosen to spread the barrage over several episodes. This is actually good, as it gives you a good feel for each person's character.

Anyways, if you haven't played the game...SPOILERS ahoy. So stop reading. :D

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They've already introduced Endou Kazuki, and they're already hinting at his true identity. I'm not sure how to take that, cause I really liked the spoiler in the game where you find out he's the Chairman of the Board and Keita's childhood friend. :3 How he made Keita a promise to go to school together one day. ^_^ And then he bends Keita over his desk and fucks him senseless. That's the best part. ¬_¬ I hope they put this part in the anime. ^_^v

I was so amused that before they set up Naruse as the resident sleazebag, they set up Nakajima as the Campus Rapist. *laughs* As much as I love Endou Kazuki, I actually find his character rather bland. =_= While he is Keita's ideal partner, I must say that prefer Keita with Niwa or with Nakajima. XD There better be more scenes with Nakajima to come. :D

They're also more plot going in behind-the-scenes, what with people being dissatisfied with Keita (what's up with those twins? :/), so maybe instead of being kidnapped by random school thugs, those kids are gonna take him somewhere go Keita can be saved. :D I'd just like to interject here that the scene where Nakajima comes to reclaim him and then fucks him outside is by far THE HOTTEST ending you can get. :D *coughs* Anyways...¬_¬

Gakuen Heaven has new characters! Masaoka Jin and the twins! :D I guess they needed to fill their silver-haired bishounen quota in order to reel in all the appropriate fangirls. :3 I hope we see more of him. Especially if they make another Gakuen Heaven sequel. (My, my. Keita sure is getting around.) Let's see where this plot goes, they've set up some interesting things. Unlike a regular dating sim, you need more than hot guys to hold a show together. :3

Go Gakuen Heaven gay!

HOLY FUCKING SHIT
HOLY FUCKING SHIT
HOLY FUCKING SHIT
HOLY FUCKING SHIT

CLAMP IS COMING TO ANIME EXPO.

YES, THAT CLAMP.

For the first time in many months, I am GLAD I live in SoCal.

FUCK WIN!

The more I think about it, the more I realize that I don't think I'm cut out for a career on academia. The politics, shameless self-promotion, and asskissing just aren't for me. I think I've realized that being a professor ain't all it's cracked up to be. I think I wanted to do it originally because I thought that professors were their own bosses, that they didn't have to do answer to anybody but themselves in what they chose to do for research, but now I realize that's not true.

I was talking with a colleague from the Havton lab today, and she's not staying in academia. She says she's had enough. Another colleague from the same lab is also looking for a job in industry. I'm really starting to think too. Do I want to stay in here at a university? It's kind of sad that I've never known anything else.

Either way, I'm staying at least for a Ph.D. I know I'll need more than just a B.S. to do whatever it is I want to do. It also puts off the decision making for a good, long while. Maybe I'll go into management consulting. Maybe I'll go into advertising. Maybe I'll go and be a game designer. Who knows. Maybe I'll stay in academia after all. At the moment, I think I'm just kind of floating around in the stream and seeing where it'll take me.

I now have a Skype. You can reach me as "skuldchan." But here's the catch. It doesn't work on my desktop, Sasuke, because all the analog sound ports are clogged by my 5.1 Surround Sound system. XD

That means that if you want to talk to me, you either have to actually dial me on your cell phone or you IM me and I'll fire up my laptop and we can use Bunji to talk to each other. :3 This is particularly applicable to my out-of-country friends if they want to chill and whatnot! *pokes the people in Japan* :3

Anyways, if you have a Skype too, let me know. :3 I may get bored one day and decide to come out of my little hermit hovel and actually attempt to socialize. *hugs*

Love you all!

Suzuka Kazuma,

ゲット！

Who should I aim for next? :D My first love Morimura Sakuya (ignore the bad Engrish ¬_¬), my Osaka soulmate Kijo Madoka, or bishounen-in-residence Mihara Shiki?

Maybe I should be aiming for studying more instead, and getting a better time on Akina. -_______- So many games, so little time. :p

OMG WANT

and

WANT

None of you guys are gonna get a good night's sleep around me again. X3

The sudden nostalgia of seeing Gakuen Heaven as an anime has made me pick up TokiMemo Girls Side again. XD *laughs* I'm still sad I haven't replayed it with Morimura's ending (he was the cutest little nerd on the planet), but I'm working on Suzuka Kazuma, who I've always kind of had a bit of a crush on. XD

Man, I'm sad that nobody in Girls Side 2 is attractive. ;___; Okay, maybe Teru and Itaru are kind of cute...but everybody else is kind of meh. And there's no big name seiyuu (not like Midorikawa Hikaru, Ishida Akira, Miki Shinichirou, Koyasu Takehito, Hayami Shou, Kosugi Juurota, and Okiayu Ryuutarou) that I really recognize, except for Nakai Kazuya (I love him for his Zoro, his Xiahou Dun, and his Mugen ~<3) and Ueda Yuuji.

Meh, I might get it. *shrugs* Who knows. I'm still praying I got into that RIKEN thing... :/ I wanna go to Japan this summer so badly, yo. XD I guess I can always pick up Girls Side 2 there as well as Gakuen Heaven Okawari! and any other dating sims I may have missed. Like Angelique Etoile (I haven't even gotten around to playing Trois!) and Meine Liebe 2 (I haven't even touched the first one yet! Gah!). And maybe Cafe Kichijoji De. :p

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I just realized I think I'm the female version of the Densha Otoko otaku. Yay for playing dating sims and being t3h uber-pathetic. I'm sure it's half to console myself that the person I have a crush on probably doesn't have a crush on me. XD It's like having comfort food, but instead it's comfort dating sims. :p No fappable material, but hey. :D I do what I can to deal with my wangst. XP Kazuma~kun ~<3 You are such a cutie. :3 And what's more, your voice is done by Hiyama Nobuyuki. Who also does Nakazato Takeshi in Initial D. ^________________^ ~<3 Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ *fangirls all over the place*

Don't you love how everything I love is SOMEHOW connected to Initial D? :3 I was watching Himuro-sensei's ending and thinking about how much he reminded me of Takahashi Ryousuke. ~<3 I suppose that must mean that my next stop in GS has got to be Mihara Shiki. XD Cause he's Miki Shinichirou and if I close my eyes, maybe I can pretend I'm dating Takumi.

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! *RABURABURABU*

You know, I never thought that there would ever be TWO gay anime out for me to watch in the same season. XD First it's Gakuen Heaven (which is really making me hanker for the game! Gaaah, I need to get Nakajima's ending! It's FUCK HOT!) and now there's also Princess Princess.

This season of anime is totally starting to rule. :D

I do quite believe it is fapping time.

WHAAAT?!

Gakuen Heaven came out with an anime 4 days ago, and I was TOTALLY UNAWARE! D00000000000000000d!!! UCLA has totally killed my Boys Love life! SHEESH.

Speaking of which...I still need to get through the original 18+ version. Why doesn't Nakajima like me? *cries up a storm* I tried so hard to get him to like me! *sniffles* I bet it was the fact I couldn't read Japanese and therefore was stupid about the quiz section. ¬_¬ And yeah, I haven't done played any Angelique, Meine Liebe, Gakuen Heaven, or TokiMemo Girls Side because I'm too embarassed to let my roommates know I play dating sims. :x Gay dating sims. ...and well...most of those are straight. But dude. (Speaking games that are t3h gay...I also need Cafe Kichijoji De.)

I am so watching this shit right after it Torrents. :p And then I will probably do a jig. SHIT DOG! GAKUEN HEAVEN ANIME! And they have all the original seiyuu! And they added two new people: TWINS!

*SPOOJ*

I must be the happiest Gakuen Heaven fangirl ON THE PLANET. Why didn't you guys tell me this EARLIER?! ;______;

EDIT: Does anybody know who's planning on subbing this? Cause if any subber is short of staff, I totally volunteer to be an editor and QC! (I don't think translating is going to work very well... ¬_¬) Hell, I even played the game. BOTH versions. XP

好きな人いる。いま、俺は好きな人いる。男性だ。最近たくさんアニメを一緒に見る。次のコンで一緒にコスプレをする予定もあるし。俺はなぜ時々男性が好きになるかなぁ。どうしようもないくらい彼が好きだ。彼は俺が好きかどうか知らないけど、その可能性はあるはずだ。俺が好きじゃないとしても、友達のままもいい。

一つの質問だけ：どうしよう？告白しようか？待とうか？黙ろうか？

Mwa ha ha ha ha ha!
New my 250GB hard drive, Mugen, is installed. I got him sometime during break but was too lazy to unplug my computer, clean it out, transfer my old 40GB of music over to my 160GB drive until just yesterday. X3 *happy sighs* I want more HD space...dunno what I'll use it for but damn, I want more. ^_____^ It feels good just having it.

Booyaka. :3 I have so much space now, I don't know what to do with it.
Other than maybe...Torrent everything alive. XD *laffo*

;____; UCLA lost. Horrendously. Embarassingly.

Where were out big players when we needed them? *sighs* Oh well, we made it out of the final four and into the championship, which does me proud. It's so different being part of a school that has good sports. :3 The whole atmosphere makes me want to be a fan. XD Kind of like how Boston's love of the Red Sox drew me in after a year or so of being there. :3 Hey, our UCLA team is young. We might just win next year. ^_^

Phew, lots to blog about. :3 Riven came over for the weekend, I love meeting internet friends. Got a lot of Initial D done and got addicted to MaxTune 2 as well. XD Oh, you knew it was going to happen to eventually. Now to work on some skillz so I don't suck... ¬_¬ This might take a while. And it might also take something other than my 350Z.

School has started for the Spring Quarter, so it's back to the grind and probably even worse this quarter. I am so hosed it's not even funny. O____O The systems class doesn't seem so bad in terms of work, but man. Lab is gonna kill me. Dr. Phelps is super strict and has such high expectations, as do the people I'm assigned to work with. On April 19th, I may well have to be in lab at 5am. =_______=;; That kind of sucks cause my first test is that day. How am I going to survive? There's also another paper and presentation due in Japanese. *bangs head against wall* That killed me first term, this term is gonna make sure I'm good and dead. *dies*

Not to mention the cosplay that I've been planning to do forever. ¬_¬ I might just drop Xiahou Dun and work on him exclusively in the summer (totally won't make it in time for AniBos), so that means that it's just Jin and Takumi. XD Probably just Jin. :p *cuz I'm lazy and grad school hates my guts*

On an interesting note, I think I have a Mugen. :D It's my awesome friend Dave Chow. He's got the perfect body type too. XD Now all I have to do is find something to do about his hair...and Mugen's earrings. Hmmm. *ponders*

GO UCLA!

=____=

I just got addicted to Wangan Midnight MaxTune2. ¬_______¬ *sigh*
Yet another money/time sink. -_-;; My black 350Z is so pretty though. :p I can't help but love it to death.

o_O Somebody just died.
Like, right in front of our apartment. O______O

Got run over by a SuperShuttle van.

...freaky. o_o I wouldn't have known if my neighbor didn't call me up and tell me.