floating

The more I think about it, the more I realize that I don't think I'm cut out for a career on academia. The politics, shameless self-promotion, and asskissing just aren't for me. I think I've realized that being a professor ain't all it's cracked up to be. I think I wanted to do it originally because I thought that professors were their own bosses, that they didn't have to do answer to anybody but themselves in what they chose to do for research, but now I realize that's not true.

I was talking with a colleague from the Havton lab today, and she's not staying in academia. She says she's had enough. Another colleague from the same lab is also looking for a job in industry. I'm really starting to think too. Do I want to stay in here at a university? It's kind of sad that I've never known anything else.

Either way, I'm staying at least for a Ph.D. I know I'll need more than just a B.S. to do whatever it is I want to do. It also puts off the decision making for a good, long while. Maybe I'll go into management consulting. Maybe I'll go into advertising. Maybe I'll go and be a game designer. Who knows. Maybe I'll stay in academia after all. At the moment, I think I'm just kind of floating around in the stream and seeing where it'll take me.