March 14, 2005
Thanks Yous, and A Matter of Pride

First and foremost, thank you to everybody who wished me a happy birthday. I didn't get around to replying to everybody individually because it was a busy weekend, but I saw, so, thanks ^^ It was pretty much a weekend of food and friends, which was nice, and then my mom took me to see La Mala Educación, the new Pedro Almodovar film, which was...interesting. I'm not entirely certain I can say I liked it, but it was interesting. Mmm, plot twists. This also means that I've now seen my firt NC-17 film ^^

Anyway, on to other things, for a short while at least.

I have problems with my own pride. Yes, sometimes it is a good thing - it gives me self-confidence, and I do have things in my life to be proud of. But at the same time, it also holds me back occasionally, as strange as that sounds.

I think the biggest problem with me and my pride can be summed up by saying that it keeps me from doing two things: one, largely getting anywhere _near_ the possibility of looking stupid in front of other people, and two, admitting I'm wrong.

While I've been trying to be better about the second, at least with the big things where it matters the most, I've begun to notice more and more recently that I'm starting to find myself wanting or liking or being interested in things that I refuse to tell people because I run the risk of looking foolish, or it's something I've previously dismissed or looked down upon, and by changing my opinions I'm admitting I was wrong.

Yeah, stupid, I know ^^

Meh. I'll figure out what to do about this later, I think. For now, Mario Kart :D