July 30, 2006
Self-Doubt

It's quarter 'til three in the morning, and I really should be asleep as I need to be up at eleven thirty to drive home, but I'm having a massive moment of self-doubt about this fall. I'm leaving in four weeks, first to Toronto for a day or two, than out to BC, and right know, I'm wondering - is this really the right choice for me? I think I can safely say that out of the two places I got accepted, UBC is definately the better choice, but...I only applied to four schools, and I wonder now if I should have applied to more places in Boston, because while Vancouver is an awesome city, Cambridge and Boston are what I grew up with, pretty much. I'm going to miss the T, even - there's something about subways that buses just don't quite touch. And while it'll theoretically be nice to be closer to a bunch of my friends, without a car, it's still a four hour trip out to the island or down to WA, which is probably just long enough to keep me from doing it with any sort of regularity and make me totally frustrated in the process

*sigh* I wish I wasn't perpetually second-guessing myself.