This is kind of a hard entry for me to write, but...I dunno, I'd rather be up front and open about things, and I really do use this journal as a way of keeping track of my thoughts and feelings for myself.

I've realized recently that I've been having a lot of problems with anxiety, and related to that, depression over, oh, the past four or five years or so. This has led me to screwing up a lot of relationships with people I care about, and generally being miserable a lot of the time. The good news, though, is that having recognized this, I'm finally seeking help, too. Right now, none of it's one-on-one - mostly because of some health insurance headaches, so that might change over the summer when the health insurance gets sorted out. However, at the moment, I am doing a group cognitive behavioral therapy-type thing - it's less of the 'let's talk about our feelings!' group therapy and more learning how to recognize destructive patterns of thought and action, and deal with them.

The material has a bunch of writing excercises, some of which I may post here as a way of recording them - you can read, you can skip, whichever you feel like. Things are definately starting to look up, though.